Because maybe

Maybe it is time for me to ask all the questions ~ Maybe after all this time, you won’t feel obliged to give sugarcoated answers
If only you knew how the anger is killing me
If only you knew what you’ve really and truly done to me
I don’t care what you did anymore; I just want clarity

Because I’m trying to keep my pride but breaking up inside
I can’t make sense of how your heart just stopped
How you’ve never felt the truth would set me free

I’m still waiting for that penny to drop.
Because I can’t stomach your cruelty – what a dangerous combination such a pretty face and ugly heart can be
What I want to know is if my healing will come from your answers. . . Because if not, then I will sit with this sadness and confusion til it runs its course.
Silence is power, I thought I knew that for sure, but in my own intimate power struggle.
I am tortured once more.

Because I’m damaged. I’m holding onto so much pain
So deeply wounded I don’t feel like I will ever recognise myself again
Because maybe you changed me
Maybe it is time for me to ask all the questions ~ Maybe after all this time, you won’t feel obliged to give sugarcoated answers.

If only you knew how the anger is killing me
If only you knew what you’ve really and truly done to me
Because I don’t care what you did anymore ~ Maybe I just need  some clarity

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